I told him that I have something important to tell him, but it will have to wait till I am back in Vallarta on March 14. Sure enough I got a text today... "You don't wanna tell me now? You HAVE to wait till March?!!"
Ohhhhh YES. It's going to be so much better when I tell him in person that I may stay the summer. I can't even wait. I honestly would just like to skip the next month, do the birthday business on the 1st of March and then take a big leap all the way to the 14. That would be ideal. Oh to dream...
Unfortunately that would be me living in a non-realistic world, which I tend to do at times so I need to stay focused on the present and work toward what I want in the future.
In other news: The Boy Who Is Too In Love With Me is coming over to the apartment on Monday. I honestly don't know what to do about him. It's not that I don't like him, but how can I like two people at once? That doesn't seem fair. Plus, I know that the connection between Alejandro and I was much more intense than anything I've experienced before and if we have held on to the thought of being with each other for THIS LONG with out letting it die, well, what does that say about US? Obviously we're friends and always have been, but there has always been something else. I used to push it away thinking I was crazy because of the age difference, the kid and the fact that he was seeing this Canadian girl. When a guy is in a relationship I wouldn't even dare to waste my time. But, all that time he told me his feelings about things, his relationship, his life...
He tells me that even when he was with that other woman, he couldn't take me out of his mind. This may sound unfaithful, but considering the circumstances... she was rarely sober and he doesn't drink. What kind of a relationship is that? He just kept thinking that if he let her go, she would get hurt. Well, I say: so is life. And that's all in the past now anyways.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He kissed me in front of his co-workers! HAHAH just a little side note, but it made me rather excited because the place he works at is like high school all over again; cliques, gossip circles, bitchy ass people all over the joint... well, take that Ladies. Ese hombre es mio... almost. : )
I've been talking to my grandma a lot lately especially about these current developments. She doesn't see a problem with Alejandro at all, which was surprising because I thought she'd flip about the eight year age difference and about him being a father. The funny thing is that when I was walking around one of the malls in Vallarta with him he goes:
"Kristy (I love when he calls me that), you turn 20 in March?"
"Yes, 20. Why?"
"Hoooly... are you sure you want to be with me like even go places with me? You know that I am 28 years old?"
"Yes, I know how old you are, [insert name]." I love using people's names when I'm having a conversation.
"Well, some people might think that's perverted."
"Ok. That's other people. What do you think? Does that bother you?"
"No no of course not, but I was concerned about your feelings."
Honestly, people, I could care less. If I'm practically 20 and he's 28 then we can meet somewhere in the middle. I don't know how typical 20 year old girls are supposed to act, but sometimes I get the feeling I'm not one of them and that's fine with me. I can only be myself.
Conclusion of the day.
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